I agree, but I am not just talking about honesty versus lying; I am talking about a brutal honesty with self, one that requires careful introspection and discovery over time. We all desire approval, we all are fake at times. I am talking about digging into the areas that scare me, ones that I have not touched and don't really know or understand. If you, my freind, have acheived such consistant honesty that you can sneer at an honest admission that h
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Writing to reveal. I was talking to Heidi today about art and the necessity of honesty. Honesty is so difficult, but it must be my goal and my constant effort.
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I believe in God. I went through a methodical process of asking myself questions about the nature of the universe and my existance and came to the conclusion that the universe has an intelligent design - meaning that it the complexity cannot be attributed to randomness, but can only be explained by the presense of an intellect creating and implementing a design. I also came to believe that 'Good' and 'Evil' exist; independant of my interpre
Right now I am filled with venom for myself and my circumstnace, veom that is likely to be let loose at any time on some unsuspecting bystander. It is an old venom, rising unbidden from a twenty year sleep. What do I do with it now. I can see now the connections in my mind between my fears of being shamed and my protective habits. I can see the way I have used porn because they could not refuse, they could not say no, they can not ridicule or demean or be-little me. Though surely I am demea
Ok - bloggin can be fun - right. The results of the day are that I am no closer to my dreams than before. I detest whining in print, and I hate to see myself do it, but..... if I want to practice writing, I need to get everything out so that I can become more proficient at writing what I want to write. This will make the perfect place to work on my random attempts to describe Fatherhood.
Try to keep it up
and pushing buttons over and over and over
Driving my Teenagers around and watching X-Files year 3 on DVD...oh...and sleep.
Driving my Teenagers around and watching X-Files year 3 on DVD...oh...and sleep.