Making Mistakes
. . . a whole lot of them
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Because my toxic thoughts leaked out into the unrestricted world of blogging, I figured I should attempt a public apology. I've screwed up so many things at this point, I'm not sure I can dig myself out of the hole. I deeply regret so many of the decisions I've made, especially my previous blog. I used this site to justify my behavior, rather than take responsibility for it. This was unacceptable, and I am sincerely remorseful about this choice.
Truth be told, everyone involved in this situation has been hurt. My actions only created more pain. I desperately want to "fix" the wrongs I've done, but one thing I am learning is that some mistakes are not easily erased. Living with the consequences of our behavior is much harder than than I ever imagined. Forgiveness is intensely complicated.
Telawna,
I am so terribly sorry. I do not consider you an evil person or a negligent parent. Your girls are blessed to have you, and in my pain I twisted the truth. I will do whatever is necessary to regain your trust. Sierra and Tessa are lodged deeply in my heart, and my stomach physically hurts when I consider losing the relationship I have with them. I ask for your forgiveness, and I commit to redeeming the chaos I have created. May God heal the wounds I've inflicted.
Tenille
Truth be told, everyone involved in this situation has been hurt. My actions only created more pain. I desperately want to "fix" the wrongs I've done, but one thing I am learning is that some mistakes are not easily erased. Living with the consequences of our behavior is much harder than than I ever imagined. Forgiveness is intensely complicated.
Telawna,
I am so terribly sorry. I do not consider you an evil person or a negligent parent. Your girls are blessed to have you, and in my pain I twisted the truth. I will do whatever is necessary to regain your trust. Sierra and Tessa are lodged deeply in my heart, and my stomach physically hurts when I consider losing the relationship I have with them. I ask for your forgiveness, and I commit to redeeming the chaos I have created. May God heal the wounds I've inflicted.
Tenille
