Ah, so how was everybodies Easter break? Mine was great. Except for the part about getting grounded. lol. Lets just say I didn't do anything and my brothers got me in trouble. So did you all fill your bellys with good food and what not? I did. It was all yummy! We went to my grandma's like we do every year. I had fun. Me, my cousin Jenny, my aunt, and my mom played euchre(is that how you spell it?) Jenny and I got our butts kicked big time. My mom and my aunt won like four games in a row before we actually won one. lol. I think my mom and aunt cheated though. hehe.
Anyways......I went to church twice during break. It's a little unusual for me to go twice a week. We only go to the Sunday morning mass every week. But during Easter break we went to the Holy Thursday mass. I don't recall ever going to one of those before. But the main reason we went is because one of my brothers had to serve that night. But to my luck I just didn't get to sit there either. My youth director came up to me before mass started and asked if I would act as one of the 12 deciples(i don't know how to spell it). So I said sure, not knowing what I was getting myself into of course. But she explained to me and told me that when I go up there I have to sit in one of the 12 seats up by the altar and take one of my shoes off and my socks if I had any on. Then the priest and the servers would come around and wash the 12 people's feet. So I'm sitting there thinking oh great. I had a boot kind of shoe on that practically goes up to my knee. I'm so glad I wore a pair of pants instead of a dress.
So when they call the twelve people up there, I took my shoe and sock off. I decided to sit in the last chair so that I could be last. So father started the whole foot washy thingy. Well no sooner then they started, a woman started coughing, and then she sounded as if she were choking on something. Lets just say I've never seen two people get up from their chairs and jump over steps and run to the lady so fast! Damn, I mean they were freaking booking it! So all of these people were around this lady trying to help her and what not. Well you hear people turn on their cellphones. But the funny thing is nobody bothers to call the ambulence, until 20 minutes later you hear someone that was helping the lady yell out, "Somebody call the ambulence!" Then somebody finally called. Gosh, were they that stupid? 9-1-1 would've been the first thing I'd have done. So in like 5min the paramedics were there and took the lady.
After the lady was taken away we started the foot washy thingy up again. Finally they get down to me. Father starts pouring the water over my foot. Well I was expecting the water to be like freezing cold or something, but it was burning hot. It really shocked the shit out of me. And my brother was holding the towel and just standing there giving me this evil little look as if he were laughing at me, but only in the inside. After that was done we had to go around and wash other people's hands.
Lets just say that afterwards I felt different. I don't know how but I did. I felt as if God had forgiven me for things I've said wrong and any other little thing. I sat there and thought about it. Then father said something that rung a bell. His homily was about peace and forgiveness. So you could only guess who and what this reminded me of , right? Well as I sat there and listened, everything father was saying was so true. He said that people go around and only hear what they want to. They don't open their eyes to see the truth and they don't open their ears to listen fully. He also talked about assuming things and how wrong it was. Jesus wants us to be able to forgive anything. He forgave all of us by dying on the cross for us. Because he loved us all that much. It didn't matter if anybody was right or wrong at the time. He forgave us and died for us. Why can't we as human beings be the way he was? Now, I'm not saying go get crucified or something. I'm saying that we should all be able to forgive and forget. Ok, maybe we could be a little iffy on the forget part. But what about that forgiveness part? It's what God wants. Why can't we just do that? Maybe because we are humans and we are not perfect. But in God's eyes we are all perfect. No matter what we say, what we do, wether or not we murder someone or cheat on someone, we are all perfect in God's eyes because he forgives us.
I just wish we could all be able to forgive. I'll continue praying, because I want to be able to forgive everybody. I think I've played fair in that part. I just wish everybody else could forgive like I'm trying to. Maybe you already have. And if you have that's so awesome. I also pray that we all won't assume things and spread things that we don't even know are true. I know I have assumed things too before, but I'm trying to stop that too. I don't want to assume things. But why do people have to spread things that aren't true? Then again I think that answer is that we're human. And we do these things.
Anyways....I'm done with all the crap that's been going on. Don't even mention it to me, please. You'll be doing me a huge favor. I'm still trying to mend things with Sam......but that's a whole nother ball game. But just try to not bring any bad memories back or talk about. And another thing. Please don't say one thing and turn around and say just the opposite. Just please don't. It's a simple favor I'm asking of anyone. Because if you do that, it makes things worse because people assume again and what not. So I'm done. No more........
~carebear~
