Has anyone besides me sat out in the rain? Have you stood there and let it pour down on you… does it clear your mind? Can you smell the rain? I can smell it coming, it’s a weird little sense I have had since I was little. I love the rain, probably more than the sun. I feel so much better to hear the rain… most days it makes me cry. But a good kind of crying.
Just like the sunset… I have never watched a full sunset. I was going to, but I guess I forgot…
Anyways, having the rain fall on me feels like I am being washed away of everything I’ve ever done. Everything I have done wrong, every mistake I’ve made feels like it’s gone. I have done so many things wrong… I’ve trusted the wrong people, believed the imbued lies… now is the day I give up on everything I have believed in. I have tried to be strong, but everything I’ve ever believed and cherished was a lie….
But there will always be the rain I guess. Please rain, wash away everything I’ve ever done…. Teach me how to trust again, teach me to love again. I have lost sight of what it feels like, to have someone there to hold me and truly love me.
Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I used to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine
Wherever she would go
But lookin' at her now, you'll never tell
Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
And I can only imagine what she's feelin' when she's prayin'
Kneelin' at the edge of her bed
[chorus]
And she says, take me away
Then take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
Like Holy Water
Holy Water
She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's lookin' through the faces and unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she cries
[chorus]
Like Holy Water
She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healin' hands of someone who understands
[chorus 2x]
Like holy water
Like holy water
Like holy water
Like holy water
I really like this song, Holy Water. But every time I hear it, I cringe my teeth, my hands and arms shake, I wheeze, I cry… because maybe it reminds me of me.
God, can you help me? Before it is too late again… I am breaking.
