Just imagine this more as a country song... or, if you dont want to imagine hearing my horrible singing... you can think of it as a poem. It actually turns out more poem-like in the end anyway.
I was going to give this to you Alex... but i decided not to. I dont know how you would react anymore. And i think you probably don't want me to give this to you either.
Monday night I was half-expect’n you to be there
It was the most important night for me.
After all the practice
This is what it turned out to be.
You were always by my side
And told me I’d do fine
You said that I would give it to ‘em hard
And that I’d really shine
I knew we weren’t together anymore
And after the auditions, I knew you didn’t care
You could care less if I made it or not
Either way i knew you wouldn't be there.
Sitting up on that stage, I tried my very best
I didn’t care if you were out in the crowd
I only wanted to stand out from all the rest.
I played with every thing I had
I played with my entire heart
I played those songs I practiced with you
Even though it tore me apart
After a tough performance I gathered my stuff to leave
I saw you walk right towards me, and never spare a glance
And in my heart I knew you wouldn’t give me a smile
Let alone a second chance.
And how I was right, you walked right past
You never noticed the tear running down my cheek.
You will never know, but as you turned the corner, I started to cry
I fell to my knees and couldn’t speak.
I saw everything I worked so hard to achieve
Walk right past me and not even care
I just saw my life just turn away and leave
You don’t know how much I would give for you
I would give up the very music I play
Because none of it seems of value anymore
If I can’t have you to hold me everyday.
I will probably regret writing this too. I'm sorry for whoever gets angry.
Samantha
