The first day of the new year

not much changed

I had a really good time last night. I spent my new years with lizzy.. It was defintely a good time. I didnt drink though and that is odd, but I guess I just didnt feel very up to it. So the clock changed and the new years began, and I hope its better than the last. Well so far nothing much else about my life has changed.

Oh yeah, and I want to give a heads up to people that lie straight to other peoples' faces. That is so cool. I wish I could do it. Riiiiighhht. In this past year, so much has happened in my life. Mostly none of which i consider good, besides my friends. The guys I have met. Lemme see here... yep I would have to go with lying and cheating. They definetly all seemed to be pretty good at that. Do i seem bitter? Well I guess I am. I mean time after time I trust people, and at this point, I am really not sure why. Are people so demanding that they need to lie to get more of what they think they need. Is attention that important for everyone? I guess it matters to some more than others. I don't want people to fight about me, or even deny that they know me for sake that they have someone else and were not honest with me to begin with. For whatever reason I have to let things go in my past, and realize that I haven't truly met these boys at all. Because these boys were not who they said they were, and these boys were a mere distorted image of something I thought I wanted in my life. I also believe that I have been lying to myself. I definetly choose guys that are entirely out of my league. I am not that attractive nor do I have much positive imput about guys that I have dated. I guess when I start looking for the right guy for the right reasons; he will in return be right. So where do I begin. I just made the mile walk I called my life a marathon. For my new years resolution I have decided to change something, my outlook on life. Although at one point I thought of my future as bright, I am now strung in the middle of a path with two dark roads that lie ahead of me. Life is full of questions. Am I ready to grow up?

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Hi Lisa, Sounds like you are doing just that. (growing up) You seem to be learning some of life's lessons well, especially when it comes to boys.
Oh, just thought you might want to learn the correct spelling of this word, since you seem to use it quite often. Hope you don't think I'm being a prude. defintely = definitely The way I remember is it has the (nite) in it. (def'i-nite-ly) Ok, now you have learned a new word to start out your new year. Hey, it never hurts. Lots of laughs! GCJ

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LIsa there are only leagues if u let there be. You are a very unique person.
Always open to listen and willing to help. Your outgoing and very beautful. You should never, ever, sell yourself short.
Any guy would be lucky to have someone that would care about them and love them as much as you would. Although,
the right guy will be the one who returns that love. Its not even love, its more like a friendship that two people find, and
it blossoms into something special. There is plan behind everything and most of the time after something bad happens. You
sit back and think what the fuck happened. But you cant do that because each person that walks into our lives and back
out will touch us in many different ways. Ways we might not understand at the time but someday it will just all make
sense. So dont give up hope cause there is some lucky guy out there praying to God he finds a great girl like you. This song
always makes me happy thought u would like it!!--------CHEERS, a Friend!

That’s life, that’s what people say.
You’re riding’ high in april,
Shot down in may.
But I know I’m gonna change that tune,
When I’m back on top in june.

That’s life, funny as it seems.
Some people get their kicks,
Steppin’ on dreams;
But I don’t let it get me down,
’cause this ol’ word keeps getting around.

I’ve been a puppet, a pauper, a pirate,
A poet, a pawn and a king.
I’ve been up and down and over and out
And I know one thing:
Each time I find myself flat on my face,
I pick myself up and get back in the race.

That’s life, I can’t deny it,
I thought of quitting,
But my heart just won’t buy it.
If I didn’t think it was worth a try,
I’d roll myself up in a big ball and die

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