K10w3,the lordset 1, Hey guys, I'm sorry but I don't like that comments...
You have graphics skills I can't compete with. You have a fan base I can't compete with. When it comes to icons, Libardo, you ARE a master, and those of us who are just beginning can't compete.
It's not you....it's me. I have an anxiety disorder to begin with, and adding the stress of a contest to the stress I already have in my life is not good for my health. If there was no contest involved...if all the entries were just going to be stored and used successively in a line one after the other, then I would have no qualms at all about presenting an entry. I can't deal with competition. I feel like my skins are children that I have given birth to, and to have them marked "LOSER" (even though it's stressed time and time again there are no losers...yada, yada...in my mind, if my "child" doesn't win, then it's a loser), hurts too much.
Right now, I skin for myself...for my own needs. If I feel its something someone else might use, I upload it to Deviant Art, and if I feel its particularly good, considering my ability, I upload it here. So far, this has been working well for me.
I don't know....you would think after all the rejection I've had in my life, and the fact that I'm 50, I would be able to deal with it a little better than I do, but inside I guess I'm still a little girl who didn't get enough attention due to the fact that my parents gave birth to twin girls when I was only 18 months old...a cross I'll bear until I die, I'm sure. ANNNYway...enough about my mental problems.