I can sleep I have all these things popping into my head and then won’t go away.
Make then stop PLEASE.
All that I can think about is that I will never find a person that is right for me.
My story actually starts out just like the movie “Never Been Kissed”
Where I was from I never really was the prettiest or the smartest kid
There I liked a kid named Nathan just like how “Josie like Billy Prince”
Only fact was I wasn’t named after a pussy cat in a band.
I didn’t have cruel jokes played on me but I did have a song mad up about me. And it wasn’t Stacy’s Mom either.
These people were cruel and mean. But I had a fresh start on starting over at my new school. I was able to put the past behind me and not care what people thought of me.
But I can say and start with. I never really have kissed a guy.
I never really shared anything with anybody.
I never had a close friend or even boyfriend for that matter to share close memories or anything with.
I have never had a close bond with my mom or dad
I wanna find that person to be with
I wanna have that moment when the first time it happens that everything around me and that person goes hazey and the only thing in focus is me and that person.
I wanna feel that
I wanna share that feeling with that person
I also want my knee to pop like on the princess diaries only not get tangle up.
I see everybody holding hands and laughing together and I just wanna be apart of it.
I am tired of being left out
I am tired of being the only one not to be able to share those moments
I wanna be able to say I found that person
Or say yes for once I have somebody that I care about and actually likes me.
I wanna person that like to be there
I want something that I will always to remember
I wanna laugh and giggle
I wanna roll in the mud and have no care in the world.
I wanna scream at the top of my lungs and hope that at least one person will here me
and I want that moment when I find it last forever and not go away.
What do you think is that moment out there and am I ever going to find it or has that moment already pass or in the process of passing right before me.
Tractor-Chick
