Last night, I realized I feel like a ghost... I float through life and time always waiting for something. At least today, a pending gig wrote to me and told me they are going to book someone else because they haven't yet received our press kit. So that wait is over... there's some closure there. But still waiting waiting waiting on two others.

Waiting waiting waiting to receive a video in the mail from someone who shot it for the band in August.

Waiting waiting waiting to start recording because the studio isn't finished yet and because there's always some excuse not to start.

If I keep waiting, before I know it, my life will have passed me by. It already feels that way a little. I try to live with no expectations, but it isn't possible, unless I live with no hope and no plans.

I think it's time to make a change. Make something happen. I don't want to keep waiting for something to break, something to give. It's been this way for too long.