I'm sorry that things are so unstable for you right now. I was in the same kind of situation a few months ago....and by that I mean that my life was no longer in my control, it was in the hands of others.
It will get better, trust me.
My husband's from Indiana, I'll be there at the end of the month. After that I'll be close to St Louis. Drop me a line if it looks like you;re heading back that way....my email address is on my blog page.