| Heartbroken and teary eyed. |
CareBear~I am totally sorry that you are hurting like this. And I am glad to see you are getting some good support from other JU bloggers, etc.
I think I know both you and the Capt. pretty well (as well as is possible when it's online, huh?). And I don't think he would ever hurt you on purpose. The dude does care about you big time. He even mentioned your name in a recent comment he left me. But he did call you his "best friend". And then he mentioned his new online girlfriend! I mean, I was kinda shocked and everything. Because I didn't even find out about any of this stuff until a few minutes ago.
But dudes are kinda funny about matters of the heart. I mean, don't you remember how much I "disliked" Lisa when I first met her? And look what ended up happening!
. So I think the Capt is just gonna have to figure out all this stuff for himself. The situation will resolve itself in time. I wish the dude luck~no matter what the outcome of all this is. But I honestly think there is no substitute for true friendship~and you have been so loyal and caring towards the Capt. for as long as I can remember. An online relationship cannot equal that (IMO). You and the Capt. just always seemed to "fit" together really well. I thought you both made each other happy. The mutual respect and fondness between you two has always been so obvious. So I am a little puzzled by all this.
Plus the Capt. has never been one to lose his head over anything. He puts his relationship with God before everything else. And this internet "true love" thing is not always what it seems. It is a bit too easy to fall in love with a person you have never met in person! I have been through that. But I didn't let myself believe it~thank God! And later on I found out that the people (it happened to me more than once) I thought were so totally wonderful and everything were not really a good match for me at all. That's why it's not so wise to rush into something like that, etc. Oh yeah, folks have met each other online, and ended up getting married and everything. But that is kinda rare. The normal thing is that people end up getting disappointed. Because it is way too easy to be something you are not online. Whereas in real life~it's a lot harder (if not impossible) to do that kind of thing. You gotta be real or else.
All I know to tell you is to give this a little time. The Capt. means no harm. I believe he cares about you a lot. And I hope this will not affect the totally cool friendship you both already have. I think both of you can grow from this. It doesn't have to be the end at all. This could even bring you closer together in time. We just have to wait and see where this online dating thing goes. I wish the Capt. the very best. I want the dude to be happy, etc. But I think my loyalty to you makes it all pretty obvious which girl I think is the best one for him big time. (Hint: Her name is CareBear!!
.) But he will have to figure all this out for himself. I don't want to judge. But I have always sensed that you have loved him a lot, and I was kinda hoping the two of you might be able to make a go of it together. You both are such awesome people.
I am just rambling here, so I will shut up now. Just know that all the pain and discomfort you are feeling will go away a lot sooner than you might think right now. And we really don't know how this is all gonna turn out, huh? Your dreams might still all come true for you, CareBear. This does not have to be the end. And at least now the Capt knows how you really feel about him. Maybe the dude just didn't honestly know that until now? So give it some time, huh? And I think you are handling all of this with a lot of grace and class! So pat yourself on the back. And do something kinda nice for yourself (ice cream, a new pair of shoes, a really cool new cd?) to help you feel a little bit better ASAP. Because you deserve that a lot. Hang in there CareBear! Hope to chat with you again really soon!
~MadPoet
P.S. It's really good to have you back at JU again~a lot of folks missed you a lot!
