It’s like a hunger. All consuming, sometimes enrapturing. Lest, you’re the only one that realizes it. Then, well then there is a feeling of a vast oblivion stretching out before your eyes. Motionless with the grip that no matter how you say it, no matter how you wish they could read your eyes, they cant. They are a million miles away from you and all you want to do is simply hold them, show them what you see. But inside that blank vast oblivion you cant do anything. You cant show them what you see, you cant show them the obvious flaws. You want to protect them, but you cant, they are far too bull headed to let you.
Then comes the hard part. An uninsured stab in the proverbial dark. You force yourself to step back. Let them make their own mistakes, you aren’t their mother or father. You love them but some things have to be done the hard way as much as it pains you that they do. Granted it feels as though you are smashing out that one light that so clearly show in the dark. That one light that attracted you , like moth to flame. But, some times you have to. It breaks your heart to see them do it, but you know that you must step into the darkness and let them do it, let them gain their own perception of the turning pages of the moments passing. And some how hope that they come to see the same thing as you.
Life is harsher than the harshest winter, more painful than any pain experienced by man or god. And beautiful, a thousand times more than the grandest sunset or sunrise. And it differs a thousand times in the same person. Everyday is truly different in the way that every hour, every minute is new and different to you than the last. Think about those you love and think about their perception of the world around them, around you. Ever changing like the tides and the sands.

Remember that its not that they look down on you for giving up, they just will never completely understand your reason for doing it. Just like you will never understand my reason for writing this article.

Adios.